Well this isn’t really funny, and I know I’ve been neglecting the blog over the last couple of months having gone mainstream, so for the sake of posting I’m posting this. The first and 2nd paragraphs are completely unrelated to each other and I know I sound like a 16 year old hormonal teenage girl but meh.
There are two aspects to a person, one he shows to the world and one he keeps to himself. It’s not really that hard putting a good show in front of the world and seeming like a nice person. The battle usually starts with that other aspect of yourself that either usually drowns out of you overtime or starts growing over a certain period of time. For me at-least it’s been growing, which has resulted in a massive loss of interest over the last 6-7 months to be myself and interact with the world at all. The effect of that hasn’t been entirely negative though, a lot of positive things have happened, people, things, opinions and situations aren’t holding me back, whatever happens happens and I either take it as it is or just forget about it, move on and be grateful which has come with a realization we have absolute no control over certain things, people will be people they will put you down, they will move on they’re people that’s what they do in this modern age of intellect everyone tries to be God, so it’s just best sometimes that instead of trying to control everything let it play out accordingly. But having said that with that has come an ever growing distance between friends and family, without any specific reason though but I’ve just lost all ability to listen to people and their problems are even hold a normal conversation with them. Their replies, their reactions to every situation it’s gets more predictable with every conversation and I lose more interest day by day, and when someone has the common decency to ask me what’s up with my life that also leads to similar predictable conversations where I know what they’ll be saying before it’s even said or the more popular “I know how you feel like man or I know what you’re going through” which is usually followed by their problems and how they’re completely unrelated. Sometimes I wish they would just shut up after “I know what you’re going through even though it doesn’t make much sense and isn’t really an actual problem of sorts and you’re just being a moron” and just enjoy the silence instead of throwing empty words that have absolute no meaning. That would be really nice.
Over the last couple of months I’ve found and come across some people that have changed my life for the better, people who have made me realize my numerous flaws and helped me in trying to fix them and more importantly through a really really tough time made me realize what truly matters in life and what my focus should be on and also made me realize you don’t need to be a genius or an innovator to leave a positive impact on anyone’s life. People often label life as unpredictable but when the final fate of every living being is the same you often realize that these unpredictable events aren’t really that unpredictable but just a source of test for us.
That’s really it, the last two paragraphs kind of show why I stopped writing. It’s probably best if I stop again.
Later.
Reading your blog gave me courage to own my emotions, I try to shrug off these feelings when I get them, becauseI feel scared of confessing this. I think people might think I’m too smart and ‘above’ theri mental level because I don’t feel their words comforting. But you’re right. Conversations do start to sound empty sometimes.
You don’t need to stop writing in this phase of realization as this is the phase you are gonna put up things what really come from you not what you bring out of yourself. People, saying,”great post!, nice post!, awesome!” and things like that, might annoy you but there are a few, may be some, people who really get what you want to induce in them. May be you end up helping someone or may be even more.
And I know what you’re going through even though it doesn’t make much sense and isn’t really an actual problem of sorts and you’re just being a moron. *shuts up*
No, don’t stop.
dude dont stop! u have a cute blog!
Pindi Boy, this is just the 20s crisis. Perhaps you’re more intense than average people around and that doesn’t make you ‘abnormal’. Majority is mediocrity any way. You can follow my blogs too!
I guess you are trying to accept and observe, the way this world really is.
Trying to observe and critically analyze will help you see how God Almighty works in a meticulous and mysterious ways to do good. I guess it would generate an avenue to augment your humbleness.
But everyone has got a right to opinion regardless, how much obsolete and blasé it seems. Getting to know opinions can be keep us in the sphere of homo sapiens…
To stop ur blog is a decision up to you entirely, but people around here like to read the eloquent details that u put down about the values of the society and current issues.
We appreciate your courage to criticize in a ruthless yet objective mannerism. So dude continue on and do not fall back, since, u present hope and bring smiles to readers…..that matter a lot for change.
Good day
I wont say that I understand your problems or what so ever. The thing is that through this blog you reach out to so many people like me who face problems in daily life, they are let down, they fail and yet they have to get through with everything hoping that the next day would bring something better for them. You, along with your great sense of humor, are an in inspiration for everyone to laugh again, to live again.
Please don’t take away this from your readers.
And I tend to disagree about you being a moron … You’re just being human. Being human entitles us to have feelings and there is nothing wrong with that.
*Shuts up*
You’re cool okay.
I don’t think you should quit like this but then, maybe it’s you who knows what the better option is and you have to decide so yeah.
I am one of those silent admirers. I’ll miss your rants. Thanks for the times you’ve made us laugh.
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I love this post.