Well this isn’t really funny, and I know I’ve been neglecting the blog over the last couple of months having gone mainstream, so for the sake of posting I’m posting this. The first and 2nd paragraphs are completely unrelated to each other and I know I sound like a 16 year old hormonal teenage girl but meh.
There are two aspects to a person, one he shows to the world and one he keeps to himself. It’s not really that hard putting a good show in front of the world and seeming like a nice person. The battle usually starts with that other aspect of yourself that either usually drowns out of you overtime or starts growing over a certain period of time. For me at-least it’s been growing, which has resulted in a massive loss of interest over the last 6-7 months to be myself and interact with the world at all. The effect of that hasn’t been entirely negative though, a lot of positive things have happened, people, things, opinions and situations aren’t holding me back, whatever happens happens and I either take it as it is or just forget about it, move on and be grateful which has come with a realization we have absolute no control over certain things, people will be people they will put you down, they will move on they’re people that’s what they do in this modern age of intellect everyone tries to be God, so it’s just best sometimes that instead of trying to control everything let it play out accordingly. But having said that with that has come an ever growing distance between friends and family, without any specific reason though but I’ve just lost all ability to listen to people and their problems are even hold a normal conversation with them. Their replies, their reactions to every situation it’s gets more predictable with every conversation and I lose more interest day by day, and when someone has the common decency to ask me what’s up with my life that also leads to similar predictable conversations where I know what they’ll be saying before it’s even said or the more popular “I know how you feel like man or I know what you’re going through” which is usually followed by their problems and how they’re completely unrelated. Sometimes I wish they would just shut up after “I know what you’re going through even though it doesn’t make much sense and isn’t really an actual problem of sorts and you’re just being a moron” and just enjoy the silence instead of throwing empty words that have absolute no meaning. That would be really nice.
Over the last couple of months I’ve found and come across some people that have changed my life for the better, people who have made me realize my numerous flaws and helped me in trying to fix them and more importantly through a really really tough time made me realize what truly matters in life and what my focus should be on and also made me realize you don’t need to be a genius or an innovator to leave a positive impact on anyone’s life. People often label life as unpredictable but when the final fate of every living being is the same you often realize that these unpredictable events aren’t really that unpredictable but just a source of test for us.
That’s really it, the last two paragraphs kind of show why I stopped writing. It’s probably best if I stop again.