The human mind is a very indecisive prick. It hates change but it’s never happy with what it has.
You make decisions that you hope turn out to be for the best but as soon as you think they might back-fire you go back to your comfort zone or get stuck in the middle of an infinite limbo in which you hope that over time you’ll eventually get out of but it’s not always that easy. The worse part being that you’re the only one who has the ability to get out of it. No one will be there at the end of it helping you through it because mental struggles are like that it’s just you and yourself and only you can get out of it. Sorry for the cliche but they say The greatest struggle is that of the mind once you have power of your thought, and power over your mind then there’s nothing much that can stop you but when you don’t then even the smallest of things can end up destroying you.
But ignoring the depressing tone I’ll get out of this Inshallah because all you need sometimes is a little perspective(as a friend pointed out). A little perspective will tell you that there will be thousands if not millions who would love to be in your position. And millions who are much worse off than you. It’s at that time you realize your problems seem trivial and you get a very enlightening reality check. After that dose of perspective what do you do? I haven’t really figured that bit out but the last couple of realizations I’ve gone through have been enough of a wake up call to make me introduce a little positivity into my life.
At the end it’s your life, and it shouldn’t be dictated by anyone else but you. See someone passing snide comments at your existence or how you live? Let them pass it hell even laugh at them if you want. Want to lick that pole in -10 degrees condition just to see if your tongue gets stuck but won’t because you think the guy walking past you who you’ll probably never see in life again will give you a weird look? Go ahead and do it and let society judge. Society is like your mom’s desi aunt. She’ll have a negative patronizing opinion on everything you do but her opinion at the end of the day won’t really matter because probability and statistics have taught me it’s you who’s probably going to be eating the free food at her funeral in 5 years time. It’s hard at times to let things that bother you not bother you or completely ignore them because trust me I’ve let issues I’ve had absolutely no control over destroy me but as much as I’ve been a cynic over the past few years it hasn’t really made me any better. So the few things in your life that are positive hold on to them because no matter what you go through in life they’ll always be with you till the very end (though make sure you don’t do something stupid that ends up harming those positive things ). In short I needed to get somethings out, it’s my life and it’s time I take control of however much of it is left.. And fuck it I’ll spend it the way I fucking want to spend it.
My dad shares a quote with me everytime I screw my exams up (it’s been going on since grade 3) “Success has many fathers and Failuire is an orphan” even at a young age I was quite full of bullshit when it came to talking and I would usually reply with “Well if I need success for people to accept me I don’t want it”. My dad and me laughed after everytime I said that. Still cracks me up. Haha.
Later and Eid Mubarak everyone. Keep me in your prayers and I shall keep you in mine. Sorry for the random personal post once again as you can see I still haven’t figured out how to not make the post appear on the home page.
Let’s all be Water!
(It’s also ironic that this is 700 words long and yet I can’t manage to string more than 30 words for my sociology paper that’s due in 2 weeks. Have I mentioned how much I hate sociology? Psychopaths stereotyping society. Sounds like my type of thing.)
Its like someone said, ‘When you get old, your greatest regret are the things that you didn’t do, rather than the things that you messed up’
I can relate to the first bit so much its kinda scary. Its like you were sitting in my head reading my thoughts and then planned on blogging them on here (eloquently cause I’m incapable of that haha). Favorite bit : ‘ probability and statistics have taught me it’s you who’s probably going to be eating the free food at her funeral in 5 years time.’ HAHAHAHA so evil!
I like it.You’re not so..nonchalant on the surface anymore,not a cynic either.Be whoever the hell you want and screw everybody else right?
that society shit, people judging you etc. is so damn true………….. do let me know when u get past that fear and really go and lick that pole… i want to learn that trick of the trade , how to give a f*ck to society and do your own shit…… do let me know…….. you should let such posts keep coming.. once in a while…..